Preparing For The Next Stage of The Plan: The Chorus of Life
a song that keeps echoing with the same chorus,
with the inability to forgive ourselves.
How easily the life we didn’t live becomes the only life we prize.
How easily we are seduced by the fantasy that we are in control,
that we were ever in control,
that the things we could or should have done or said have the power,
if only we had done or said,
to cure pain,
to erase suffering,
to vanish loss.
How easily we can cling to – worship
the choice we think we could or should have made.
I sang The Song of The Sea in my prayers and while singing the weekly portion as the mirror image of the above.
No guilt or regret — celebration of possibility, and, with that possibility, being able to forgive ourselves.
Not prizing the life we didn’t live, but the life we shall.
No fantasy after the Ten Plagues and the splitting of the Sea that we are in control,
No considering what we could or should have done, or said,
Only using our power to say in our Song what we dream of doing.
Is there a better way to prepare for the commitments at Sinai?
Is this why we conclude the Seder with Hallel and song?