Amidah: Refaeinu 3/4/10 Part Seven
Transcribed and prepared by Chava Janovsky: How to Realize You Can Really Do This Sincerely: Use First 3 Brachas
Question: I hear what you are saying but when you talk about being sincere in davening, to daven that whole world should be filled with Moshe Rabbenus and do that 3x a day, if I ask myself do I really mean that? I am not sure I really mean that. Is it better to be more sincere and not ask for as much?
Answer: Why would you not be sincere?
Class: good question
Answer: Because you didn’t daven the first bracha of Shemonei Esrei.
The first bracha describes 3 human beings and Hashem says I want to be known as Elokai Avraham, Elokai Yitchak, and Elokai Yaakov. What does a human being have to do for Hashem to say “I want to be known as Elokai Avraham?
Do you realize that this possibility exists? So much so that David HaMelech asked why don’t we say Elokai David? He wants to feel that he did something so spectacular that he could be known as Elokai David
Therefore by the end of first bracha YOU are saying: “What a Hashem I have that he created ME with so much potential that one day He is going to say from now on I want you to say “Elokai (insert your name)”
(Artscroll would be furious – not happy because get to make more siddourim)
Do you understand that is what first bracha is saying?
The second bracha is:empowerment. The whole bria is empowerment: you are celebrating the unbelievable power.
How can you daven for geula saying “I believe Hashem this is the bracha for geula that will bring the geula”? How can you do it? Do you believe that when you say ga’ol Israel that your bracha that bracha will bring the geula? How can do it unless you were empowered?
This idea is second bracha of empowerment, gevouros.
So how do we bridge the gap of experiencing my limitations? This is the third bracha of kadosh, of the filters. The 3 times we say kadosh and how you bridge the different worlds.
Rabbi Weinberg gave a shiur on this last night. It is unbelievable. Need to read the 65th Perek of Yishaiyhu. These words will bring tears to your eyes
This is Hashem speaking
“I was accessible to those who did not ask for me, I could be found by anyone, even by those who did not seek me. I said ‘here I am, here I am’ to a nation not called by My name. I stretched out my hands to a straying people, who walk a road that is not good following after their own thought and who say ‘keep to yourself, do not come near me, You are too holy for me’”
Artscroll wrong on one word “ki kidashticha,” The Medrash says means “You’re holy, it is too much for me”
Very dangerous when we begin to speak bout holy people. The nuvi is saying what do we often tend to do when there is a holy person? We say they are too holy.
I could have responded to story about grandfather: “He is one of gedolei hador, that’s really cool but that level is not for me”
Or I could respond and say: “I could be like that that when I have a kasha. I could feel that I won’t fall asleep.”
(Unfortunately He had way more answers and still didn’t sleep as much as me)
The 3 times we say Kadosh means: “Don’t say You are too holy for me.”
Why the Pesach Seder beings with kadesh: you need to set a level of kadosh for yourself so that you can bridge the gap and not hold back.
Do you understand the power now of davening in plural?
Do you experience there is confusion in Clal Israel?
You don’t even need to look on the web, but you will certainly seeit if you look on web.